he fills our bed
with roses
and i fall back
onto the thorns
– the road to recovery
A blog about stumbling through life in your 20's
he fills our bed
with roses
and i fall back
onto the thorns
– the road to recovery
i have been climbing
for so long.
now that im finally
at the top
all i want to do is jump
stop trying to teach me
how to be
smaller than the men
towering over me
– my dreams are bigger than your ego
the funny thing about history is that it doesn’t matter. it doesn’t matter whether it is true or not. history is always written in the perspective of the victors. history is rarely written correctly. but no matter what happens, one thing will always be true. history repeats itself. we built mediums so that we could write history and decide, for the first time in history, how the future plays out. and instead of building a fantasy, we write the same words that have been written on tombstones for centuries. not everyone can be a good storyteller. but everyone tells stories.
A.
“do you consider yourself a liberal”
you ask
as if there is
a correct answer to that
while I just sit
both hands
balled into fists
wondering where the fuck
you get off on
asking me to define
my education
my stance on
abortion
civil rights
constitution
bathroom talk
locker room talk
minimum wage
and gas prices
by picking a side
when they’re created by
the same institution
profiting from this divide
and i will reply
– “do you consider yourself an idiot”
it’s hard to tell
if the shit i’ve said
will ever be heard of
or thought of again
or if every word i say
is just plagiarism
of someone else’s thoughts.
but when i sit down
to the blank page
words bleed from me
like therapy
and as the ink melts away
i hope you can read
the words you are too afraid to say
and that you will be brave
enough to change
what makes you so cowardly.
– it doesn’t matter if you tried, sooner or later we are all gonna die
there’s a feeling of inadequacy
that settled in
when you left
and now i feed it
three meals a day
i try to kick it out sometimes
but it shames
everything i say
it watches me
with disapproval
while i take off my clothes
it picks apart my skin
seals it with a kiss
and signs your name
getting old
doesn’t happen because you
realize your limitations
getting old
happens because you
get too busy to live
just because you touched me
doesn’t mean i am ruined
i am not a piece of cake
you cannot carve my value away
with your fingertips
-he would eat me without the frosting
you say that we are the same
separated by an imaginary line in the sand
but you are named after a ruler
a god
a piece of history
we are named after flowers
and the seasons that kill them